I’ve been tired.

I’ve been tired. I’ve spent a lot of time just me and the kids lately. My kids are great. Arguably two of the cutest, sweetest, and all around awesome kids I know. But sometimes, I’ll admit, their awesomeness overwhelms me and I O.D. on quality time. When my son mentioned for the 100th time how much he missed daddy, I couldn’t help but think, “I wish you would miss me, because that would mean I was somewhere without you”. Compassionate right? Trust me, there are times when I am even less charming. The truth is, sometimes life, even a great life, is exhausting. Both physically and emotionally exhausting. It’s sometimes hard to think of anything but rest.

So I took a rest.

  • Physically.
  1. I let the laundry pile up until I couldn’t see the floor (okay so not that), but I stopped obsessing over my need for perfection.
  2. Skipped the gym a couple of times to eat chocolate and popcorn in my pajamas. (even my diet took a rest although I will point out I feel better when I am eating well and exercising, sometimes you just need a rest).
  3. I took a nap.
  4. I stopped letting the fear of losing momentum keep me from ever taking a break.
  5. I remembered that even God took a rest (Gen 2:2).
  • Emotionally.
  1. I quit beating myself up over selfish or rude thoughts. Instead, I started rejoicing over all the times I didn’t say those things out loud. Funny thing happened, my thoughts were gentler when I released their hold on me.
  2. I was kind to myself, extending the same grace and love I extend to others. God is gracious with me, I ought to be gracious with myself.
  3. When my own thoughts discouraged me, I took them captive.
  4. I stopped wrestling with my mind; I was too tired for that. Instead, I locked up my self-loathing in a box and purposed to trust God with the only key and the task of cleaning it out.
  5. I remembered that the mind controlled by the Spirit of God is life and peace (Romans 8:6). That sounds restful.
  • Spiritually. I waited. I listened. I read. I prayed. I trusted. I believed. I humbled myself enough to lay down in peace knowing He alone keeps me safe, sane, calm (Psalm 4:8).

Physically and emotionally I had to take a break to get rest, but spiritual rest is active. I had to actively shift my focus off of me being tired and put it back on trusting God’s word as truth.

You will keep in perfect peace him whose mind is steadfast, because he trusts in you. Trust in the Lord forever, for the Lord, the Lord, is the Rock eternal.

Isa. 26:3-4

Are you tired?

Tired is okay, because Jesus gives rest to the weary. Whatever it is that makes you tired, God knows it and He wants to give you rest in the midst of it. Don’t be duped into thinking rest is for the weak. Rest, my friend, is for the wise. Focus on Him. And believe that true rest flows from the heart, to the head, and through the body.

Praying for you this week. That God would be your resting place.

7 thoughts on “I’ve been tired.

  1. Shaena, I just love this post. I identify so much with the emotional section in particular. We can be so hard on ourselves sometimes. It’s refreshing to be reminded that when we beat ourselves up over our failures and shortcomings, it is no different than doing so to others. Just as we trust the Lord in others and have faith that He is shaping them into his image in his time, we need to have that same faith and trust in the work he is doing in our lives. It’s so easy to cross the line between healthy self-critiquing and simply berating ourselves. We could all probably use a good emotional “rest”.

    And some chocolate sounds pretty good too ;o)

  2. Oh Shaena, I just LOVE this post. How encouraging! It took me years to figure out rest is for the wise, too many years in fact. I once read that, “Sometimes the most spiritual thing you can do, is to take a nap.” How true is that?!? Love ya!

  3. Shaena, I missed you and was thinking about blogging so I started reading yours and I feel like I am in a movie theater where I don’t even want to blink. At first I was reading all the marriage ones ya know, because I am a single girl but then this one kept sticking out to me. I needed to hear this. Thank you for writing this, your writings really do speak to people you should continue. love you hope you are having fun in Hawaii

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